Saturday, December 18, 2010

almost there...

finally one more paper left ^^

oh well i dun care how hard are u i will kill u just like how i kill my other subjects =)

u know what? positive thinking is so important that it really can affect ur energy and motivation...=)

so be postivie ;)

and believe that u can do it...when u believe, everything is possible and everything will come true...

that's the secret

Monday, December 6, 2010

awww I love my voice

no mood to study ady....saturated =S there's too much to study ><>watched some duet videos on youtube...i need a guy who knows how to duet and sing to duet with me too =p
if i know the song, i m sure i can sing the girl's part...after listen to a song for few times, i can know how to sing both girl's and boy's parts ...
there's alot of chinese and english songs which i can duet....but mostly are chinese songs la =p
can't find a guy who can duet with me yet lol
btw...my China friend, who listened to my presentation for the first time, told me : 你的声音在present 的时候,变得很甜呢! 很好听!
zzz...abit swt..hahaa...
seriously, we can't tell whether one has a good voice or not by judging his or her speaking voice..lol..coz if i speak, my voice is like very normal, or i can say my speaking voice is actuali not nice..but when i sing...it will surprise those who never heard it XD
but honestly, i love my voice...when singing...even me myself also canno resist the voice...kinda canno believe that it is my own voice =p
so...i love my voice so much !! ^^

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

final is coming...first shot is lab final on this wednesday...after that all projects due...followed by econs, calculus, inorganic chemistry, fluid mechanics and process engineering finals...
add oil laa..gambateh laa..good luck laa..
try ur best laaaaaaaaaaaaa >.<

well...i love all of you...so dun kill me plz...

Sunday, November 14, 2010

next tues is process engineering midterm..seriously, I am dead...=(
i duno what to do for this subject anymore, head almost burst...

btw...a strange encounter with water and fire..what's next? air or earth? lol

yesterday after swimming, we went to play foosball...hahaa..really long time din play d...last time i played was on april 30th or so...ytd was nov 12th...wow...more than half a year i din play d =(

really had great time playing ytd...really...found back the feeling of playing foosball in chestnut..lol

miss those time in chestnut when we can play almsot everyday =(

hope can play more =)

Monday, November 8, 2010

这个决定,也许对你造成很大的伤害,不要恨, 因为或许你不知道另一方也被这决定折磨着
不要什么都不知道就鲁莽自下定论
小误解累积成河, 日日夜夜,足以造成巨大伤害
很多事情其实你都不知道,就不要为了这些事胡思乱想
也许糊涂地过日子也好
傻人有傻福

冬假去哪里好呢?目的地肯定是美国了,但不知道是去纽约呢,还是去华盛顿,去佛罗里达州是夏天的事吧。
有好多人约我呢,还是跟回同年的朋友吧

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

我只要求你的谅解, 哪怕就那么一点点...希望你不要不理我, 哪怕只是向我点一点头, 微微笑...希望一切能重新来过, 哪怕我再也不会认识现在我所认识的人...
我只是希望, 你不要再惦念着那些过去, 只要你尝试, 哪怕就忘记那么一丁点
让我们重新出发吧


Sunday, October 24, 2010

i have something to say =)

yayyy...done one of the craziest week...but more are coming soon...anyway i wont care for it for now XD

hmm....finger cut is healing...hope it will be fine real soon...injection effects finally gone !! i can bath and do things like normal d...only the finger wound matters now...

went for volunteering for fall campus day...chemical engineering volunteers...answer alot of ques from parents and high school students....great experience though...haha

i am being really honest when they ask me abt my life as a chem eng student XD

tomorrow badminton...sometimes i really wonder, should i go for badminton? or church? i am not a christian, but going to that church, and listen to the messages conveyed by the priest really make me realize something in my life...

but i like badminton...it's like the only sport that can make me play for hours...hahaa

yesterday, Toronto-ians celebrated my birthday...it's kind of surprising though coz i duno they will book a dinner in Matahari..i kinda tot it was a normal outing ...coz we always party on fri nite

so we went to eat there, i ordered char keoy teow, others order mee goreng, hokkien mee, nasi lemak, rendang etc...the food are not bad, but insane expensive XD one plate of char keoy teow costs me abt 18 dollars after tax =S

anyway, once in a while, i dun mind...i had a birthday cake there...and kind of paiseh too, coz it's like in a restaurant, with other outsiders around, when they sang the bday song, i feel abit paiseh la..haha

had a nice birthday celebration with them...it really feels nice coz u are alone in oversea without ur family around, and u hav a bunch of close frens who celebrate ur bday with u...i feel really warm...we are friends, but we are also a big family, a family of Malaysian JPA students in Toronto...^^

Thank you so much my family in Toronto...it's really nice to have you guys here =)

Sunday, October 17, 2010

reminded of that again

cut my finger...ouuchhhh...it was sooo painful...cried when i washed my wound

went to see doctor, skipped 2 classes for that...she said i almost sliced my finger tip off...cried again when she washed my wound...painnnnn

given a Tetanus shot, to prevent infection...a deep cut

typing with 9 fingers now...

i cried...and again, i was reminded of that PAIN again...a deep deep cut in my heart

don't leave me just like that...please...almost 8 years, but i still feel the deep pain in my heart

or should i just leave with you =(

Monday, October 11, 2010

sportsss

played some sports in Toronto...like frisbee, basketball..and recently tried swimming and badminton =)

nice sports...though tired, but it was really a good exercise..will continue learning swimming =)

realized who are the ones really good to me =)

thanks my friends

Monday, October 4, 2010

风筝断了线, 往事般落在我面前, 是谁忘了将风筝握紧一点, 牵起了那年的秋天

往事如过眼烟云, 过了就真的是过了, 莫要流连忘返...

再舍不得也得放下

偶然的心丝拨动, 也要忍耐, 让它消逝

我了解, 离开树的叶, 属于地上的世界, 凋谢

云, 就算不想离开天堂, 还是要化成雨滴, 落下来

叶, 不再是叶

云, 不再是云

景, 已然不在

我, 也已不是我





Monday, September 27, 2010

missing residence's life...

stay off campus now...need to do everything on my own...no more chestnut =(

if chestnut is not that expensive, i will consider staying there again this year =.= but it is just too expensive, so i decided to move out...

so have to do everything myself lo...like clean the house, cook, walk out to do laundry =(

sure miss chestnut life la ... so syok, cleaner will clean ur room every week, vacuum the carpet (gt carpet sumore, so that the floor will be warm)...and clean ur toilet (it's ensuite bathroom leh , tissue rolls provided sumore >.< ) everyday dont need to worry for meals, there are varieties of food + drinks, dont need to cook, dont need to wash, dont need to think what to cook today, what to eat today...

so contrast to now...lol

but now is alot more cheaper than chestnut la...can't deny that...

missing residence's life = missing pig's life...XD

who doesn't like pig life wor? XD

but move out has its advantages too...if not what on earth will make me cook ? haha

so...just leave my residence's life as a sweet memory !

cheers !! back to work !!

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Gave up for the crap

it just doesn't work right now for me...i mean...i just don't feel right...

i really hope time can heal everything...but it's now like more than half a year...why is it still like that?

it's not my fault...but...i am not doing the right thing as well...who can teach me what or how should i do?

i have tried my best...but sometimes i just feel so tired...so tired...too tired to be like this...but what i did doesn't receive any results...at least it seems like that to me...

so sometimes really want to give up...don't want to care anymore...

feel so so so sad actually...why did this crap happen to me?

fine...i surrender! i give up! i totally give up!

Monday, September 13, 2010

Cool house warming party !!!

our house had organized an open house party for all our friends here...we started to prepare for it at around 2 pm...cut onions and garlics...wash vege...buy stuffs...it was my first time shedding tears when cutting onions, too much ady i guess...lol...i helped wen hui cooked fried rice, and it tastes so nice !! thumb up to wen hui...then nian yi cooked shrimp omelet and i also cooked that, but mine was almost failed =S ...after all i am a newbie in cooking =p great applause to nian yi too ...then we also cooked cabbage...alfie cooked his cheese omelet...good job for him =)

so everyone reached around 6pm...and we start eating...i was actually quite hungry so i ate quite alot =p with ta pao tauhu & siu yok & fried chicken...all home cooked !!! after eating, we played bluff for so many rounds =.= don't really know how to cheat anyway hahaa...=p we drank beers and vodka...err actually i just drank a little bit of beer, and abit bit vodka mixed with orange juice =.= can't feel anyting hahaa....others drunk leh...red faces red eyes...feel like terbang sumore =p hahaa ...i guess they had gone crazy coz they disco at nian yi's room =.= switched off the light with torch light shinning around =.=

anyway..i guess everyone has fun and enjoy it to the maximum !!! it's a nice party right? ^^ hope we will have it again in the near future XD

Sunday, September 12, 2010

WWE Raw !!!

Omg...i can't believe i am going this !!!

watched it on TV since form 4...when sit in front of tv that time, never imagine or thought that i will one day go to watch LIVE in Toronto...

this is a WWE world tour in Toronto Air Canada Centre...from 7.30pm to 10 pm...

saw Edge, Chris Jericho, Randy Orton...!!! hahaa can't believe i saw them ...not on tv...is in the ring !!!

Cool night !!!

Photos will be uploaded soon in fb =)

Friday, August 27, 2010

finally reached Toronto safely ...

after a long long flight...with so many running and rushing ... it's totally like Amazing Race...=.=
so tired after all these...

some of us almost can't fly...coz of that stupid travel cuts =.= but don't think about it anymore...coz i am finally here ...huuuuu...with all my luggages with me...

anyways, i have reached here safely ... thank god i am here now...so no worries d people :)))

Thursday, August 26, 2010

in Hong Kong now

lalalala....finally my enjoyment comes to an end....

i will be back to Toronto...

now transiting in HK airport...

later transit in vancouver airport...

then will reach toronto...

tired !!!

bye bye Malaysia and my beloved family =(

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

can't believe he is such person...kiam pa ! hidung tinggi ! selfish ! thin-faced ! sia sui !

ok that's none of my business anymore...regretted that i know him !

first time so fed up & disappointed with a friend !

yes i do care about this friend last time. i hope i can repair and fix everything with him !

but now i am not !

no regrets !

no more friend !

NO MORE FRIEND !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Leaving

so fast it's aug 22nd now...

recently had a lot of gatherings with different gangs of friends...

with primary school best friends, tortoise family, S1 & S2 best friends...

had a lot of fun gather and chatting with them :)))

leaving home soon...

no more relax, no more fun, no more piggy life...

back to study...back to hell...

back to Toronto...

if nothing stops me, I won't be back for 3 years ...

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

牛郎织女的七夕 !!!

好吧好吧...就让我来blog一下牛郎织女的传说吧...
对我来说, 这是一个凄美,感人,浪漫的中国民间传说...它象征的不仅仅是中国千百年来所流传下来的文化, 更是代表了中国古代女性对幸福浪漫婚姻的向往...
农历七月初七, 七夕, 就是一年里, 牛郎织女唯一能相见的日子, 也就是中国情人节了...

相传天上有个织女星,还有一个牵牛星。织女和牵牛情投意合,心心相印。可是,天条律令是不允许男欢女爱、私自相恋的。织女是王母的孙女,王母便将牵牛贬下凡尘了,令织女不停地织云锦以作惩罚。
  织女的工作,便是用了一种神奇的丝在织布机上织出层层叠叠的美丽的云彩,随着时间和季节的不同而变幻它们的颜色,这是“天衣”。自从牵牛被贬之后,织女常常以泪洗面,愁眉不展地思念牵牛。她坐在织机旁不停地织着美丽的云锦以期博得王母大发慈心,让牵牛早日返回天界。
  一天,几个仙女向王母恳求想去人间碧莲池一游,王母今日心情正好,便答应了她们。她们见织女终日苦闷,便一起向王母求情让织女共同前往,王母也心疼受惩后的孙女,便令她们速去速归。
  话说牵牛被贬之后,落生在一个农民家中,取名叫牛郎。后来父母去世,他便跟着哥嫂度日。哥嫂待牛郎非常刻薄,要与他分家,只给了他一头老牛和一辆破车,其他的都被哥哥嫂嫂独占了,然后,便和牛郎分家了。
  从此,牛郎和老牛相依为命,他们在荒地上披荆斩棘,耕田种地,盖造房屋。一两年后,他们营造成一个小小的家,勉强可以糊口度日。可是,除了那条不会说话的老牛而外,冷清清的家只有牛郎一个人,日子过得相当寂寞。牛郎并不知道,那条老牛原是天上的金牛星。
  这一天,老牛突然开口说话了,它对牛郎说:“牛郎,今天你去碧莲池一趟,那儿有些仙女在洗澡,你把那件红色的仙衣藏起来,穿红仙衣的仙女就会成为你的妻子。”牛郎见老牛口吐人言,又奇怪又高兴,便问道:“牛大哥,你真会说话吗?你说的是真的吗?”老牛点了点头,牛郎便悄悄躲在碧莲池旁的芦苇里,等候仙女们的来临。
  不一会儿,仙女们果然翩翩飘至,脱下轻罗衣裳,纵身跃入清流。牛郎便从芦苇里跑出来,拿走了红色的仙衣。仙女们见有人来了,忙乱纷纷地穿上自己的衣裳,像飞鸟般地飞走了,只剩下没有衣服无法逃走的仙女,她正是织女。织女见自己的仙衣被一个小伙子抢走,又羞又急,却又无可奈何。这时,牛郎走上前来,对她说,要她答应做他妻子,他才能还给她的衣裳。织女定睛一看,才知道牛郎便是自己日思夜想的牵牛,便含羞答应了他。这样,织女便做了牛郎的妻子。
  他们结婚以后,男耕女织,相亲相爱,日子过得非常美满幸福。不久,他们生下了一儿一女,十分可爱。牛郎织女满以为能够终身相守,白头到老。
  可是,王母知道这件事后,勃然大怒,马上派遣天神仙女捉织女回天庭问罪。
  这一天,织女正在做饭,下地去的牛郎匆匆赶回,眼睛红肿着告诉织女:“牛大哥死了,他临死前说,要我在他死后,将他的牛皮剥下放好,有朝一日,披上它,就可飞上天去。”织女一听,心中纳闷,她明白,老牛就是天上的金牛星,只因替被贬下凡的牵牛说了几句公道话,也贬下天庭。它怎么会突然死去呢?织女便让牛郎剥下牛皮,好好埋葬了老牛。
  正在这时,天空狂风大作,天兵天将从天而降,不容分说,押解着织女便飞上了天空。
  正飞着、飞着,织女听到了牛郎的声音:“织女,等等我!”织女回头一看,只见牛郎用一对箩筐,挑着两个儿女,披着牛皮赶来了。慢慢地,他们之间的距离越来越近了,织女可以看清儿女们可爱的模样子,孩子们了都张开双臂,大声呼叫着“妈妈”,眼看,牛郎和织女就要相逢了。可就在这时,王母驾着祥云赶来了,她拔下她头上的金簪,往他们中间一划,霎时间,一条天河波涛滚滚地横在了织女和牛郎之间,无法横越了。
  织女望着天河对岸的牛郎和儿女们,直哭得声嘶力竭,牛郎和孩子也哭得死去活来。他们的哭声,孩子们一声声“妈妈”的喊声,是那样揪心裂胆,催人泪下,连在旁观望的仙女、天神们都觉得心酸难过,于心不忍。王母见此情此景,也稍稍为牛郎织女的坚贞爱情所感动,便同意让牛郎和孩子们留在天上,每年七月七日,让他们相会一次。
  从此,牛郎和他的儿女就住在了天上,隔着一条天河,和织女遥遥相望。在秋夜天空的繁星当中,我们至今还可以看见银河两边有两颗较大的星星,晶莹地闪烁着,那便是织女星和牵牛星。和牵牛星在一起的还有两颗小星星,那便是牛郎织女的一儿一女。
  牛郎织女相会的七月七日,无数成群的喜鹊飞来为他们搭桥。鹊桥之上,牛郎织女团聚了!织女和牛郎深情相对,搂抱着他们的儿女,有无数的话儿要说,有无尽的情意要倾诉啊!
  传说,每年的七月七日,若是人们在葡萄架下葡萄藤中静静地听,可以隐隐听到仙乐奏鸣,织女和牛郎在深情地交谈。直是:相见时难别亦难,他们日日在盼望着第二年七月七日的重逢。
  后来,每到农历七月初七,相传牛郎织女鹊桥相会的日子,姑娘们就会来到花前月下,抬头仰望星空,寻找银河两边的牛郎星和织女星,希望能看到他们一年一度的相会,乞求上天能让自己能象织女那样心灵手巧,祈祷自己能有如意称心的美满婚姻和美丽的爱情,由此形成了七夕节。

Saturday, August 14, 2010

知道吗? 离开那天不准哭哦...至少等上了飞机独自一人的时候再哭吧...不想别人, 尤其是父母看到我哭, 只会让他们更担心...已经决定了, 不回了, 直到毕业...
不说了, 我真怕会忍不住...
对不起, 谢谢您...
加油, 凯涵.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Inception shall be the new teaching material of Eng 4U...hehe

Watched a movie today, Inception, alone...left me think deep after the movie, dream within a dream?

did i experience similar dream before? i think i did know i was dreaming when i was in some of my dreams...

but well, i don't think i have experienced a dream within a dream...

Christopher Nolan has ended the movie in a brilliant way...the last shot of the scene, where the top keep spinning, then the screen went black off...

the audience will never know if the top stop spinning, although it seems to be wobble anyway...

but Cobb did reunion with his children, will he care if he is in a dream, or reality?

there is a great debate, whether Cobb is still in the dream at last, or he is in the reality? (should have discussed about this movie in ENG 4U!!!)

or is the whole movie just a dream? how do u know for sure it's reality?

what's reality?

now? with u reading a blog?

how do you know u are not in someone's dream? or your own dream?

or is your life just a dream? someone else's dream?

there's a saying in Chinese which goes~

是我梦见了蝴蝶, 还是蝴蝶梦见了我?

quite fits the movie right?

anyway the perception of reality, is worth a discussion among us =)

well, it has the most perfect and indescribable ending which I have ever seen =)

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

one more month and i will be back to Toronto...it's kinda sad =( everything starts all over again, this is not a good feeling...one year back from now, i still remember i felt so excited to go to oversea...study at oversea, something that i have wished for since long time ago =) i know i am so lucky to have this chance...last year didn't cry at all...though i feel sad to leave my beloved home...

now one year has passed...so fast...now it's July again..compared with my mood and feeling last year, this time it is filled more with sadness than happiness... i wonder..maybe i have gone through a year of harshness there, so now i understand everything is going to be so hard...and don't know when will i back to my home next time, will i stay back for summer ? one year? two years? it's hard to say now...

one year has passed, everything changes, and change everything...

Monday, July 12, 2010

Future can be predicted?

nowadays, Paul the octopus is really famous...famous for its prediction...and yesterday, it just accurately predicted the final match between Spain and Netherland...not a Germany's match..means it can actually predict any match? maybe the scientists should conduct an experiment on the octopus, to test whether or not it can predict on other stuffs...

come to think of it...how can an octopus predict the future? what makes it has the ability? i don't know about octopus (well i am not a biology student anyway) but i think octopus should be an intelligent creature on earth...i don't know about its IQ or other abilities, but i guess its IQ is comparable with humans'...at least it is not like other common creatures on earth...

two possibilities...either every octopus has this ability, or Paul is the special one (it is given the ability to predict the future...under an circumstance which we won't understand by now) the problem is here...where is the logic? how to predict future? future is something so abstract, u can't even see, think or feel...well maybe u can imagine...but u won't know for sure what will happen at the next moment...

so what is it mean actually? is it something there for u to 'feel' the future? first we have to know that future is something beyond of time...can we travel ahead of time? haha of course not...if i would have to know what will happen in the next second, i must 'go forward' two seconds in order for me to 'feel' what will happen in the next second...make sense huh? i don't know...my vocab is too poor so i keep on using '...' haha...but like what i said it's impossible for us to travel faster than time...but well, the truth is in front of our eyes...future is predicted! something is there for sure which is faster than time? what is it?

something interesting to be investigated =D

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

有人说, 每个人身边, 都有个看不见的守护天使. 他会默默地守护着你, 让你在黑暗中看见光, 挫折中看见希望.

有人说, 当陨星坠落时, 就是又有个人死掉了. 但也有人说, 一次的陨星坠落, 等于一次的许愿.

那么愿望的实现是不是等于换了另一个人的牺牲?

那样的矛盾是不是一直都存在着?

守护天使到底在不在?

我看不见他, 但他看得见我吗? 他能感受得到我的心情吗? 大家都说他确确实实存在着, 我也相信啊, 只是我看不见而已.

看得见也未必是真的啊...呵呵

继续折着星星, 九十九粒, 一百粒...也忘了是谁说的, 这样就能祈福...

是吗? 也有人说是无聊...

就是这么矛盾...

希望可以忘记, 却又期待...

就是这么矛盾...

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Calligraphy Exhibition

went to my sis's personal calligraphy exhibition on last friday...it was a great exhibition...she learned calligraphy for 7 years...using her left hand..and finally have a personal calligraphy exhibition...really proud of her haha...there are so many different types of calligraphy...not only the 楷书 which is commonly known by us..but also some special types...like 行书, 隶书, 草书, 篆书 and so on...i like 隶书 so much...^^

篆书~~~
隶书~~~

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

从来没有人对我那么好, 所以我感动

那么深的感动, 自然让我特别在意

感动着,同时也忍着痛

隐藏感动, 仰或释放?

一切似乎冥瞑之中,自有安排

Friday, May 28, 2010

Around Johor

oh it was really a surprise trip! one hour before that, i still don't know i am going to bp...after one hour, i am on the bus to bp with CT and derek...lol...i thought i am just going to bring them eat bah kut teh, then fetch them to the bus station, that's all..who knows they will ask me to go to bp with them as well? hahaa...unexpectedly, i go with them, after i simply packed some stuffs...

so we reached batu pahat by bus...Tee came and fetched us back to his house. first we find malcolm, then we went to eat and meet with shu woon also...walk around in batu pahat, they showed us the symbol of bp, it is a statue of two hands, holding a pahat and a batu...hahaa...then malcolm told us alot of his high school ghost story...well, there is a shopping mall called 'square one' as well, like the one in mississauga..LOL...we went back home at around 12am, so that night we stayed at tee's house...

the next morning we departed to Pontian, tee drives us there...really really salute their driving skills...haiz...so we reached Liang's house...he brings us to Tanjung Piai, the most southern part of south east asia...the sea breeze there is strong , well, it is really comfortable there..a nice walk in Tanjung Piai =) after that we went to see fishes by ferry, saw the area to rare fishes at the middle of the sea...and also went for a walk around the village there, those houses are built on the sea...we had seafood as our dinner...=) that night we stayed in a hotel, Liang's mother's friend's hotel..haha..surprisingly also, i learned to play mahjong there, those guys taught me...and now i know how to play ady...hehe

well, those guys are really babi...CT and me woke up so early, waited for them for hours to wake up...lol...so we left Pontian for Johor Bahru...hahaa i never thought i will have the chance to go JB...this time Liang is our driver...first we met up with xiang rong and hope he can become our GPS, who knows his direction sense sucks...lol...maybe he didn't drive so he doesn't really know the direction...hahaa...after that we met with xin ying and terrence..went for sightseeing around JB town and the culture street...and Danga Bay also...feels abit like Harbour Front in Toronto..but of course, Harbour Front is nicer...haha...we ate Laksa as our lunch, and also ice kacang and rojak...super nice! for dinner, we ate the paper wrapped chicken, according to xr, it is really famous as alot of TV programmes recommend it...we saw a singapore actor eating there with family also...well, only me, xy and xr know who is that...others didn't watch sg dramas..

so it was the last day in Johor, CT and derek went back to Ipoh by night bus, i stay overnight in JB at xin ying's house...that night i talked alot with xin ying, i basically told her everything of what happened to me in Toronto in past few months...a nice pillow talk with her =) so the next morning, after having my breakfast with xy and her mum, they fetched me to Larkin bus station, and i went back to Klang..=) it's been a long time ( 8 months or so), since I last seen UBC ppl, except CT...I am happy to see Tee, Liang, Shu Woon, Xin Ying and Xiang Rong...hope to see them again...a nice trip in Johor though, thumb up to them =)

well maybe it's a kind of fate...to meet with them again in Msia...coz it's a real sudden i went to Johor..haha...after this i am going to east malaysia, sarawak and sabah...anticipating ^^

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

说了再见, 却发现再也见不到。。。源自方文山的词。。。

是那么简单却又意义深刻的一句话。。。

如果眼泪能够证明一切。。。证明那些都不只是梦。。。

那我还是会选择掉泪, 却不说再见了。。。

如果真有神明, 能否给我指点一条明路?告诉我该怎么做。。。

要是真有真相,那么这次, 我选择知道。。。

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

long yet short

8 months away from home, this can be counted as short, yet it can be long for me too...a lot of things happen in these 8 months, sometimes i think many things are already fated, a small decision, will change ur life forever...i think i change a lot in these 8 months...i even start to eat meat...being influenced i guess...the two sems just fly pass me, if i would like to use 'memorable' to describe my first sem, then i think i will use 'realization' to describe my 2nd sem...started to realize the truth, it is a kind of metamorphosis...i wonder...really wonder...what has happened to me? change in the way of thinking, maturity, and the way to handle problems...8 months, feels like 8 years, i wonder why will i have such feeling...too deep, the changes are too deep...the impacts are not that i can handle properly, it tests on my patience, determination, and belief...grow up in such a short time, may be it is unfair, but it is really the time to get up and think twice, am i such a coward? i am not sure, this is the end, or it is just a starting point? still like the phrase, let nature takes its own course...

by the way, wish we all a happy summer break =)

Friday, April 23, 2010

fate

it's fated...everything is fated...although I am not the one who will easily give up to fate, but I can't deny...and I can't fight against it...so I will just follow what's fated, since it's prove that all are really fated...

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Away~

Love the 3D cartoon, UP so much...away in a house by few millions of balloons...you can say it is impossible or nonsense...but what I am looking for is not the scientific facts in the movie, is something in the movie that touched me..deep in my heart, how i wish i could fly away just like that, bye to everything in the reality, run away from the reality, to a world which has only love and peace...full with flowers and blue sky, river flows peacefully, sunshine poured onto the ground with green grasses...how I wish i could be in the world right now...=) To be honest, i am tired and bored with all the facts in the real world...sometimes i think we just don't need to be so serious, everything can have different points of view, and not everything is true under the so-called scientific facts...sometimes we just need to believe and allocate some imagination spaces for ourselves, to remember our childhood dreams...in the rush hour of time, just don't forget where is our starting point...=)

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

what happen actually..lol..i am not that type who like to fight =.=
why? i am such a peaceful girl...

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Exam mode started!

Aza Aza Fighting!!!

21 days before nasi lemak currypuff and roti canai

21 days before dramas and movies

21 days of suffer = nearly 4 months of heaven!!!

final exam coming...4 subjects to go...just bear with it and I will be fine =)

go through it, don't give up...believe in myself that I can do it!!!

feeling happy happy and happy ^^



Btw, I love this photo...=)

Saturday, April 3, 2010

happiness~~~

i just realized that i am already in the 101st post...hahaa...

time flies....so fast...still remember how I got this blog...influenced by some friends...ahahaa...

blogging is fun though...especially when you are tired of study, blogging helps to relax...

really busy recently...tired~~~ But going back home soon...feel happy and energetic ^^

like the way I am feeling right now...I love it...^^

hope everything will be fine...just let me pass through all these and I will be fine =)

just go back to my starting point k? =DDD

Monday, March 29, 2010

好痛...真的跌痛了...这就是我做人的原则...尽我最好的能力去帮助别人, 有时我宁愿自己伤心受气, 也不愿意别人失望...我一直都在忍气吞声, 从来都不想争吵, 我都会顺着别人的意思, 已求顾全大局...我太好心了,别人也许都不会做的事,我却一直在做...但没有人看得见...也许他们都认为这是必然的,是他们应得的...当我开始会为自己想时, 却招来了'自私' 的罪状...是的, 是我自私, 满意了吧? 然后去把我的'自私'告诉其他人...好的,我不辩,你满意了吧? 只有我一个人, 其他人都是一班兄弟, 当然这都得是我的错了...我好后悔, 为什么在最后一刻, 放弃我本该去的地方,而来到了这里? 要是和他们在一起,我也就不会像现在这样,我是有多伤心,多难过,多心碎,只有我自己晓得...

天黑了...

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

该认命吗?

Friday, March 19, 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MUMMY!!!!!!!!!!! =DDD

Thursday, March 18, 2010

BUSY

haiz...the workload of chem eng in U of T is reallyyyyy....damn lotsss....><
especially this sem...the month of March...hell~~~

To be completed in 3 weeks time:
1. MSE Labs
2. Chem Project, presentation
3. Calculus Online assignment
4. Electric quiz
5. Computer project
6. FDS
7. Induvidual portfolio
8. APS quiz
9. Chem Lab

and last but not least...

10. SLEEP!!!

Wish me luck~~~

Sunday, March 7, 2010

已开始忘记当时的感觉...

重新开始也许会更好...

我好想, 回到原点.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY!!!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Reading week rocksss!!!

Sat- Yorkdale, bought a red shirt and a jeans...CNY reunion dinner...play fireworks till 1 something, go back met CT in SK's room, chat and chat, watched a movie by Jacky Chan till 4 am...

Sun- First day of CNY...walked to St.Lawrence market and found out it is closed=.= Plan to go to Huberfront but found that it is way too far...anyway, a nice walk around old Toronto(I never know Toronto gt such place which looks like Montreal) Then dinner in Chestnut with whole bunch of friends...

Mon- Sing K in china town...first time in Canada...9pm to 3am, break my record...nice experience anyway...and my first time to hang out so late...

Tues- Watched Avatar Imax 3D with shang khoon and liong...the 3D was really nice...and the movie is nice and meaningful too...Steamboat as dinner at china town, celebrate soh's birthday...

Wed- Study during the day, enjoy during the night...went to derek's room to eat cny cookies...and play bluff...nice =)

Thurs, Fri, Sat and Sun- basically study >< to prepare for the rows of exams on tues after school reopen...(UBC ppl are still holidaying ><)

Play alot...so at last study really really fast to compensate it...><
Anyway i wont regret...first CNY in Canada...give me one more time i will still play like this!!! ^^

Friday, February 19, 2010

致阿嬷

您还好吗?

七年了,时间过的真快。

只记得让您看了我穿中学校服,那是第一次,也是最后一次。。。

依稀记得我从摇篮跌了下来,您紧张地摸着我的头,怕我跌伤了。。。

也记得您给我讲的道理和故事。。。

也记得大人们是怎么对您的。。。

您说不知道我长大了是什么样子的。。。

我已长大了。。。已是大学生。。。您可看到我了吗?

我好想您。。。虽然已七年,但是每当想起您,我的心还是湫着,痛着。。。

无论别人如何忘记您,也请您放心,因为有我,您永远都在我心里。。。

我过得很好,您不用担心我。。。

我爱您,阿嬷 =)

Thursday, February 11, 2010

放松~~~

终于忙完年假之前的功课与考试...虽然我知道这不是年假, 而是reading week, 但我还是自然而然地把它当年假 =p
年假后还有好多考试和功课,但我不管啦,这次一定要玩个够!! 因为我知道年假后的日子会如地狱般,生不如死=.=
蛮期待这个拜六的团圆饭,以往都是与家人亲戚庆祝,这次是第一次与朋友们庆祝,应该会很值得怀念...
今年新年比较不爽...没有得做年饼,也没得吃,没得买新衣,没得去拜年,没得拿红包...=(
不过我还是很开心,今年的reading week 就那么巧落在华人农历新年, 所以才有‘年假’^^ 年初一又是情人节,真是喜上加喜啊,一定有很多人结婚=p
期待看到mississauga的朋友们,想念他们=)
期待从UBC来的‘贵宾’,竹婷^^ 也很想她=)

新年我来也!!!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

memories...



Suddenly my mind runs all the way back to 2008-07 to 2009-06...

ICPU...a significant turning point in my life...

9 pm gang...how are u? =)

my housemates...how are u all doing?

i hope everyone in these photos are fine...and i miss it always =)

lots and lots of love and support from me =)

Thursday, January 28, 2010

新年万岁!!! ^^


庚寅年就要到啦!

新年新年, 新年快乐!!!

一个礼拜的假期...足以回忆过去的新年...

通常这个时候,我的衣橱已经挂满了新衣裳^^

我还在做着年饼呢^^

最喜欢就是炒花生,煮黄梨馅,搓面粉团^^

再来就是吃团圆饭, 守岁, 观赏没完没了的贺岁节目, 看着烟花满天飞, 炮竹声到处都是...

气氛都很浓厚^^

新年歌, 少不了!!!

yay!!! 新年万岁万岁万万岁!!!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

不解

目前的状况有点奇怪,连我自己也搞不清楚。到底现在是怎么一回事啊?真的不明白...

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Clear...

yeaa it's all clear now...=)

I love the feeling...being clarified and no confusion...

I suppose...

I will go ahead with my life with a big smile =D

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I do not have a good mood this few days...i even feel sad...

it will be mid of january soon...

can I be happy again?

I don't want to feel the way that I do...at least for now...

I want to go back home...

I am not sure how long more can I stand all these...

What I can do now is just to be tough...as tough as I can...tougher than what I can imagine...

It will be a long way to go...yet it is short too...let it pass by heart...

I will try to feel it...

I will not give up no matter what...

I really miss home...

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

有时候...

有时候, 一切都只是错觉...
有时候, 一切都会过去, 只要我不再去想...
有时候, 可以忘得干脆...
有时候,时间可以证明一切, 也可以洗去一切记忆...
但, 这次呢?

Friday, January 1, 2010

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

so fast one year has passed...still rmb i wrote a post on the first day of 2009...

yessss.....5 months more...i will go back home ^^