Can't wait for summer

out there is still so cold...and now is like the end of March...few days left to April...I wonder where has my spring gone to...really hope it will become warmer asap so that i won't suffer too much from coughing...i know, asthma can't be cured anyway, no matter what i do..i tried swimming...i am so scared of water yet i tried it out, besides challenging myself, i also hope this will help for my asthma to get better...feel so uncomfortable when i walk fast in the cold ( i need to do this every morning so that i wont late for class..lol ), last time i will just use hand to cover my nose and mouth...this time i learn to use scarf to do that...although i feel scarf gt abit mafan..but what to do? LOL

I want it to be warmer...!!!

Also, i need a break from all these shit...exams non stop...and low class averages...enough, really enough...i need to work during summer also, for the sake of 600 hours....if not i will just go back home for maybe 2 months or so...i know that i should spend my summer here to experience something new and to be independent..but there is less time for me to spend with my family, and parents are not as young already, and i have grown up....the time left to spend with parents is not that much already...so sometimes i hope i can don't care about all these shit, and just head back home...yes...i home-sick already =(

this summer not going back, next summer i don't think i will be able to go back home also...i can't imagine how homesick will i get that time....

I need a break...seriously a break...not only from work, but from people...just wanna be away to somewhere people dont know me...and be alone...

it is too tired to grow up...and i hope i wont grow up forever...