~ My Spaceship ~

My Valentine

2012-02-16T11:27:00.002+08:00

everyone posted a lot of photos for their Valentine, chocolate, flowers, dining in restaurant...

But for me, all these are not important, because I already have the most important thing, a life time promise, a ring :)

长大

2012-02-02T11:12:00.002+08:00

我想, 我终于还是长大了, 已经到了小时候幻想中的大人世界...

就这么一眨眼, 我来到了现在. 放眼回首, 一切都过得好快.

以前经常都在想象长大了会是个什么样子, 呵呵, 原来就是这样子

今年, 二十二岁了, 无法想象, 总觉得自己一点都不像个二十二岁的人. 还觉得自己根本就是个孩子

我也知道, 长大了, 很多事情都不会一样了. 虽然很眷恋从前, 但我想人总得向前看

有很多未知, 在前面等着我. 我需要的, 是颗坚定的心

几米说得很有道理

2012-01-21T10:11:00.002+08:00

人最值得高兴的事：父母健在、知己两三、盗不走的爱人。其他都是假象，别太计较。

对自己好点，因为一辈子不长；对身边的人好点，因为下辈子不一定能够遇见。

你不勇敢，没人替你坚强。

对你最好的那个人，往往是最好欺负的人。天下间的人，往往总是欺负对他最好的那个人。

new year new resolution

2012-01-15T12:26:00.002+08:00

yo everyone i am back! previously made my blog private for some reasons, but come to think of it, there's no need to do so for some stupid ppl out there right? i mean why should i care what those 'shit' ppl think? =)

2012 now! will be getting really busy soon. i miss those time when i don't need to consider so many things at once. i just scared i might explode. but hey come on, u are not alone! think of those ppl with no home, no shoes, no school! u are lucky!

2012 now! for those who hurt me, i wanna say, good job for making me sad and angry for a little while, but make me stronger. SHAME ON YOU! =)

2012 now! thanks for everyone who cares and loves me! i love you all too! i hope for peace in the world, peace among people, no wars no wounds no cry no disasters!

2012 now! lets love take over it alright?

Alrighty =)

中秋节

2011-09-12T03:06:00.002+08:00

吃月饼，提灯笼，相信大多数人都喜欢庆祝中秋节

别人说月圆人团圆，可惜我无法回家庆中秋，只好在这里和朋友们庆祝

我喜欢吃月饼，虽然不太健康，可是就这么一年一次，管他呢

今晚一定提灯笼玩个够，哈哈!

piano...

2011-08-25T10:32:00.001+08:00

love piano music so much...but too bad i can't play it, only can listen >.< so relaxing listening to them...

being a noob

2011-08-21T07:00:00.001+08:00

haiz...why am i always so stupid in everything? =(

3 days Road Trip

2011-08-05T11:15:00.002+08:00

So this plan really works out...we rented a car, with sk and wy as drivers, we went on a road trip...it was a long weekend, with Monday off ( Canada's Civic day, not really sure what's tat though)

first day we went to Guelph..we went to the farmer's market, church of first lady, some parks and conservation area (Elora)...nice scenery there, prob shud bring short pants, coz we can do tubing next time =) we spent our night in the park, sleep with sleeping bag on the grass, so many stars in the night sky, and i saw a shooting star!!

the next day we went to Cherry avenue farm and Kacaba Winery..we went to pick plums and it's my first time to see grape winery =) then we headed to Niagara for my 2nd time...the weather was so hot...so thirsty and i keep on drinking water only lol...went to the US side for the first time....and went to eat in The Rainforest Cafe for the first time =)

the 3rd day we went on the Niagara on the Lake. It is a small beautiful heritage town...with nice niagara lake, nice houses and shops..with all the flowers around...i just feel so lovely in the small town =) we had the so-called best ice cream in the world, but i doubted it..i think the one i had in SF was even better =) then we drive around in hamilton, trying to find a restaurant for lunch but none was opened =.=

and that's it, the end =) hoping more to come!!

Go-Kart !!

2011-07-28T04:58:00.003+08:00

went out for one full day to try out go-kart...i dont really know how to drive, so i was quite worry >.< but it turned out to be fine...although i crushed onto the wall for few times =.= it's a super nice experience to race car, although the speed is not super fast, but i really enjoyed it ^^ and i feel soooo happy that i beat SK in one of the races...i don't care what happened but i win him XD XD yayyyyyyy ^^

2011-07-20T06:09:00.001+08:00

very unbelievable, but i guess i am already in the pool

failed noodles

2011-07-12T09:00:00.002+08:00

planned to cook fried noodles with minsed meat and green pepper...feel quite confident in the beginning...things go really worse after i start boiling the mee...stupid !!! the mee was soaked in the water for too long, become so soft and sticky >.< haizz..like that also can...looks like porridge leh T_T but we manage to finish ! =D heheee....next week try again !!!

the other great and long weekend ^.^

2011-07-07T06:09:00.002+08:00

Friday:
Canada day !! so it is a public holiday for me...i went out shopping the whole day...went in almost every shop in Eaton, and also the shops along yonge...nice walk =) really thanks the fren for teman me walk whole day, although he dun really need to do so lol...

Saturday:

Went to sing K in Markham...i guess we really too free, sing also need to sing at so far haha...btw it feels nice to sing like that again...although can't really go high pitch haha...too bad too bad =p dinner in Salad King again...Thai Islamic noodles 5 chilies...yummy ! =D

Sunday:

Basketball in the morning...1 on 1 sumore, wan kill me meh? lol...lunch cooked by sk, not bad de fried noodles =p stayed there until jm and jz got back...nice to hear their voices again..if not too quiet la XD ehehehee

Hoping for more and more exciting weekends !! ^.^

good weekend !

2011-06-26T10:43:00.002+08:00

Friday

jogged to Walmart...plan to jog all the way but stomachache in the middle of the route...=.= next time i will try to jog all the way at my own pace..XD and i jogged alone without getting lost leh!! hehee

Saturday
went to woodbine beach...played a little bit of volleyball, duno how to play lo...then we fly kite!! it has been such a long time since i last flied a kite =D still remember the white big self-made kite used to be my favourite art piece =) frisbee game also not bad, very fun...to avoid running, i tried my best to throw and catch properly...quite an efficient way to improve in playing XD

Sunday
to be continue...XD

next weekend, probably will go sing K =D hope my voice won't be as rough and low as when i am speaking =)

summer ~~~

2011-06-21T04:52:00.002+08:00

work for almost one month already...everything is going well, i guess so...go to work at 10am, will come back around 4pm...prepare dinner after come back, then eat and talk =)

play basketball almost every morning before i go to work...

during the weekend, basketball, gym, circuit, outing and dinner outside

skin getting darker =)

music and singing =)

learning rubic cube...and also teaching mandarin =)

play mahjong once in a while....watch smallville =)

hope will have more and more chances to travel...i have chance to go visit smallville's filming place...a place i have watched for almost 10 years...now finally i can see it with my own eyes...how could life get better than this? ^^

jia you!! :))

basketball !!

2011-05-29T23:11:00.002+08:00

最近几乎每天都打篮球..因为liang and tay 在这儿, 每天都出去玩. 我的篮球在经过了一些训练之后呢, 有进步了一点点, 至少没有以前那么烂了...还记得以前中学投篮, 十次能进一次就已经偷笑了, 几乎时常吃鸡蛋...>.< 这些男生的篮球很厉害的, 投篮也很准.从他们身上学习了很多...和他们玩也很滑稽...当然, 和男生打篮球是有代价的...就是会受伤咯. 我一直都尝试block 他们的, 但有时真的会被他们撞到, 还蛮痛的...有时真的被撞伤...手上的瘀伤到现在还没好, 一个星期了>.<

很好玩啦, 和别人抢球, 然后尝试投篮, 如果真的进球, 会很开心 liang 和 sk 没能 block 我..XD 那两个, 每天挡我..liang 一弹跳, 我的球会直接给他拍掉, 而sk 就很高, 我根本就投不过去...实在是欠打!

哈哈，他们会一直挡我，因为我其实进球率已经越来越高。谢谢他们给我的训练 XD

篮球真的是好运动，很健康！

IMBA Lion King

2011-05-14T05:16:00.002+08:00

Back from trip!!

There are a lot of funny things happen during the trip...one of the funniest and most IMBA is the Lion King Show !!

It first start off with a tiring day...we need to take 14 hours of long journey bus from San Francisco to Las Vegas. Finally we reached and we need to rush to our hotel to bath..coz we must reach Mandalay Bay(the show venue) at 6pm to have dinner.

We waited for bus to hotel for like an hour, with our luggages, and it's so hot and windy...sands blow right into our eyes..it was painful >.<

finally we have reached hotel..i bath so fast ( less than 10 mins i guess) so that we can make it to the show (impossible make it to dinner already, so we will eat after the show as supper)

and we rush rush rush...asked ppl direction to the place, run here run there..finally we reached Mandalay Bay Lion King ticket counter.

now where's thing start to get funny =.=

junzhang booked the ticket...so the counter lady use his last name to find our tickets..then she didn't manage to find it...that day is weekend and the show suppose to be at 8 pm (we saw that on a brochure there)....joumay start to wonder..why our ticket written as 7.30 pm? then the lady came out with our ticket...saying that : sorry, come back next month. Your ticket date is June 8th !!! (which is a weekday that's why!! ) omg it is suppose to be May 8th !! then we asked the lady see what can she do ....

finally she came out again with 4 tickets....say that yes we can go in !!! tat time we were so happy..and we checked the seats...it is section A..which is 11th row from the stage !!! our original ticket was section G and she didn't even ask us to pay extra !! OMG !!

so we really enjoyed the show at the front seat !!

things havent finished yet =.=

for this show, we are suppose to get a dinner coz everything is already paid.

so we went in to this restaurant and everything was so grand...we eat good food and good drinks...and in the end when we wn to pay using our ticket, the waiter said we can't use that ticket...until we must call the manager out to talk to him ...walao...then the manager said we should have a white coupons ( i think the lady forgot to give us) ....but in the end, he managed to process our ticket for us....and we found that, the waiter forgot to include the drinks in our bill >.< so we pay less gratuities ..omg

what an IMBA day !! >.<

2011-04-26T00:57:00.002+08:00

我一直在等待, 向日葵开满地的一天。

你说过的，下一次看见你时，就是阳光普照，满园向日葵的那一天。

我相信你，一直都是。

我在等待。

犹记得那些岁月，好久好久以前，久到连记忆都退了色，我们就这样赤着脚，奔跑在我们的青春里。

已经很远了，无法记得细节，但和你在一起的感觉，我永远都不会忘记。

我还在等待。

你说我们并没有牵过手，但我们肩并着肩，走过的路，就像枫叶洒满了地，沧桑却浪漫。

你走之前，还给了我一颗向日葵种子，要我收好。

我知道，你希望我们像向日葵那样，握着手，面向朝阳。

我还在等待。

等了千年，我还是在等。我等着你回来，等着你送我的那颗向日葵种子，发芽成长。

我等着你，和我一起看向日葵。

我还在等待，一直都在等待，那阳光普照，满园向日葵的一天。

2011-04-13T01:38:00.002+08:00

每次看到他, 我都提不起勇气向他微笑.

平时的我多么潇洒, 为什么现在会这么婆婆妈妈?

Fa 非常勇敢, 他不愿意拖泥带水, 一定要在暑假之前解决. 也对, 不然真的会搞砸, 我就是一个活例子, 真的不如他.

难道扬起嘴角真的那么难? 不是的, 是我看到他直接只能装傻 >.<

对不起啦, 我不知道我是怎么了 >.<

Fa 还说, 他非常想念他, 以前一起hang out 的日子. 嗯, 我何尝不是, 虽然已事过境迁, 但我的心并不是如此...还好有人完全了解这种感受, 没事时要是突然想起, 眼眶泛泪, 也有个人一起感叹...

我无法改变什么, 只能默默祈祷

MASAT Secretary

2011-04-02T11:16:00.002+08:00

hmm....i don't know how should i feel actually...i should feel happy leh ? or worry ? coz i never be a secretary before..no experience...and no experience in MASAT committee as well...

but i am happy coz i am given a chance to be involve in MASAT ...=D

I will do my best :)

Can't wait for summer

2011-03-29T08:15:00.002+08:00

out there is still so cold...and now is like the end of March...few days left to April...I wonder where has my spring gone to...really hope it will become warmer asap so that i won't suffer too much from coughing...i know, asthma can't be cured anyway, no matter what i do..i tried swimming...i am so scared of water yet i tried it out, besides challenging myself, i also hope this will help for my asthma to get better...feel so uncomfortable when i walk fast in the cold ( i need to do this every morning so that i wont late for class..lol ), last time i will just use hand to cover my nose and mouth...this time i learn to use scarf to do that...although i feel scarf gt abit mafan..but what to do? LOL

I want it to be warmer...!!!

Also, i need a break from all these shit...exams non stop...and low class averages...enough, really enough...i need to work during summer also, for the sake of 600 hours....if not i will just go back home for maybe 2 months or so...i know that i should spend my summer here to experience something new and to be independent..but there is less time for me to spend with my family, and parents are not as young already, and i have grown up....the time left to spend with parents is not that much already...so sometimes i hope i can don't care about all these shit, and just head back home...yes...i home-sick already =(

this summer not going back, next summer i don't think i will be able to go back home also...i can't imagine how homesick will i get that time....

I need a break...seriously a break...not only from work, but from people...just wanna be away to somewhere people dont know me...and be alone...

it is too tired to grow up...and i hope i wont grow up forever...

Happy Birthday Mummy...miss you :))

2011-03-19T10:49:00.001+08:00

Finally, I got it =)

2011-03-12T09:49:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Papa...miss you :))

2011-03-05T11:06:00.001+08:00

2011-02-21T14:15:00.003+08:00

我是不是想太多我不知道，但我知道我特别容易伤感，也许真的很容易就会患上忧郁症

要是有天你觉得我不太对劲，也许我真的有问题了

不过不要担心，我还是有很多谈心的朋友，还有我的家人，我知道他们都爱我，所以我不会傻得去做傻事，这样会让别人很伤心，而我很了解那种感受，绝不想爱我的人也经历这种感受。

这或许是我的不幸，才二十出头，领悟的比别人更深，了解的也比别人更多。

这种世界，实在不值得留恋，要不是我还有家人及朋友在身旁，我是不会觉得我留在这里还有什么意思。

因为这种责任心，也因为我做人的原则，我一定要坚持

这种心地，我实在开始怀疑，到底老天还有没有眼

难道一定要尔虞我诈才可以吗？

人都是这样的吗？

我常会想，那个世外桃源在哪里？

2011-02-15T09:04:00.002+08:00

happy valentine's day !!

孤身一人的情人节, 有时真的会觉得感慨, 遗憾

一次又一次的错过, 真的像个诅咒

让人不敢再爱

怕只剩下遗憾

更害怕心又一次的碎

so...to all the singles out there like me

单人节快乐...

当然还是会存有浪漫爱情的憧憬 =)

愿天下有情人终成眷属 =)

在时计里看破一生渺渺

2011-02-05T10:57:00.004+08:00

强力推荐陈奕迅的<陀飞轮>　！！！

歌词实在是写得太棒了！！！

曲又好，简直是锦上添花　

不妨去听听陈奕迅在演唱会上怎么演绎这首歌

他唱出了歌词的意境，人歌合一

我想在这里分享几段歌词。。。

曾付出几多心跳, 来换取一堆堆的发票

人值得命中减少几秒多买一只表

昂贵是这刻我觉悟了

在时计里看破一生渺渺

辛卯年快乐 :)))

2011-02-03T10:05:00.003+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year 2011 everyone !!!

To those in Malaysia: 大年初一快乐 !!!

To my Toronto friends: 除夕夜快乐 !!! (although we have to celebrate it with thick snows and exams =S)

but chill...come on ...it's CNY !!

be happy...=)

Wish all of us have a prosperous year ahead...=)

Rabbits are so cute..I am sure they will bless me...haha ^^

New blog design ^^

2011-01-28T09:25:00.002+08:00

just changed my blog design...pretty nice ^^

love it !! =D

such a simple way just to make my day ~ :))

hope to cheer up everyone also ^^

cheers !!

幸福不是必然的

2011-01-23T09:12:00.003+08:00

很多事其实不必经历, 也能感同身受.

不是我, 都已经感觉沧海桑田, 何况是当事人?

悲惨的事多的是, 已经不是第一次了

幸福的小孩, 你们知道什么是悲痛吗?

要记得感恩

因为要知道,

现在的一切

都不是必然的

2011-01-14T09:36:00.003+08:00

其实, 也不知道真正的目的

只是, 一直在拼..但真的不知道为什么

拼到了又怎样, 拼不到又怎样呢?

到时候再说吧...走一步看一步

就骑驴看唱本吧

嗯,生活还是得继续, 因为地球不会因此而停止转动

看了那场最漂亮的日出后, 领悟了, 真的

而路, 还是得走下去, 无悔

is 2012 going to be the end of the world ??

2011-01-09T07:27:00.002+08:00

anybody can answer me??

if everyone is going to die in 2012, then i wish i could buy an air ticket and head back to home now...

don't want to care anything already..just wanna have the last 2 years with my beloved family =)

i will really really regret if i die here without seeing my family for the last time in Msia...

2012...2012 ? are u real?

what if it is really the end of the world? what am i going to do?

2010 winter break ~ !!!

2011-01-04T02:15:00.006+08:00

This winter break i went to Orlando and Miami...at first i will be the only girl in this trip..lol..kena scold by parents and uncle...=( luckily at last they manage to find Julia for me ...i am so happy ^^ i noe who find her for me de...thank you so much ^^

this trip was really awesome....alot of first time for me...first time go to US, first time go to Disneyworld and Universal Studio, first time see Atlantic ocean, first time see beautiful sunrise ^^ thank you everyone for making this happen...

Disneyworld is so amazimg, we went Epcot, Holywood Studio, Animal Kingdom and Magic Kingdom...Epcot has the awesome lakeside illumination...Holywood studio has all the movie scenes and also the awesome car show, Beauty and the Beast musical show and so on...Animal Kingdom has Mount Everest ride and i saw animals like Cheetah, ostrich, giraffe, lion and so on...Magic Kingdom has the amazing Disney Castle and the magic fireworks...

Damn amazing and memorable...

We went Universal Studio for the Harry Potter park...their 3D rides are so pro..so real...and this is my first time to ride 360 degrees roller coaster..i never play before one lo..even the one in Genting also i not dare to play...omg i tried this roller coaster..>.< and also spaceshot, I tried !! but according to those who had tried genting spaceshot, this is not as scary..but i really salute myself..OMG !!

After Orlando, we took 3 hours bus to Miami...we watched sunrise twice..so beautiful...and we went seaquarium for all the aquatic shows...love it ^^ we fed seals with fishes too...an unforgettable experience...then we went for a walk along the beach...that is the Atlantic Ocean..oh i never thought i will be able to see this ocean at the age of 20 ^^

love it..love Miami Beach...

Thanks everyone for making this trip an unforgettable one..and thanks sk for becoming photographer of this trip...those photos are

so memorable and photos speak a thousand words ^^

This is the Hulk roller coaster which I mentioned above =pp

almost there...

2010-12-18T09:27:00.002+08:00

finally one more paper left ^^

oh well i dun care how hard are u i will kill u just like how i kill my other subjects =)

u know what? positive thinking is so important that it really can affect ur energy and motivation...=)

so be postivie ;)

and believe that u can do it...when u believe, everything is possible and everything will come true...

that's the secret

awww I love my voice

2010-12-06T12:00:00.005+08:00

no mood to study ady....saturated =S there's too much to study ><>watched some duet videos on youtube...i need a guy who knows how to duet and sing to duet with me too =p

if i know the song, i m sure i can sing the girl's part...after listen to a song for few times, i can know how to sing both girl's and boy's parts ...

there's alot of chinese and english songs which i can duet....but mostly are chinese songs la =p

can't find a guy who can duet with me yet lol

btw...my China friend, who listened to my presentation for the first time, told me : 你的声音在present 的时候，变得很甜呢！很好听！

zzz...abit swt..hahaa...

seriously, we can't tell whether one has a good voice or not by judging his or her speaking voice..lol..coz if i speak, my voice is like very normal, or i can say my speaking voice is actuali not nice..but when i sing...it will surprise those who never heard it XD

but honestly, i love my voice...when singing...even me myself also canno resist the voice...kinda canno believe that it is my own voice =p

so...i love my voice so much !! ^^

2010-11-30T07:44:00.002+08:00

final is coming...first shot is lab final on this wednesday...after that all projects due...followed by econs, calculus, inorganic chemistry, fluid mechanics and process engineering finals...

add oil laa..gambateh laa..good luck laa..

try ur best laaaaaaaaaaaaa >.<

well...i love all of you...so dun kill me plz...

2010-11-14T10:01:00.002+08:00

next tues is process engineering midterm..seriously, I am dead...=(

i duno what to do for this subject anymore, head almost burst...

btw...a strange encounter with water and fire..what's next? air or earth? lol

yesterday after swimming, we went to play foosball...hahaa..really long time din play d...last time i played was on april 30th or so...ytd was nov 12th...wow...more than half a year i din play d =(

really had great time playing ytd...really...found back the feeling of playing foosball in chestnut..lol

miss those time in chestnut when we can play almsot everyday =(

hope can play more =)

2010-11-08T00:51:00.002+08:00

这个决定，也许对你造成很大的伤害，不要恨, 因为或许你不知道另一方也被这决定折磨着

不要什么都不知道就鲁莽自下定论

小误解累积成河, 日日夜夜，足以造成巨大伤害

很多事情其实你都不知道，就不要为了这些事胡思乱想

也许糊涂地过日子也好

傻人有傻福

冬假去哪里好呢？目的地肯定是美国了，但不知道是去纽约呢，还是去华盛顿，去佛罗里达州是夏天的事吧。

有好多人约我呢，还是跟回同年的朋友吧

2010-11-03T09:21:00.002+08:00

我只要求你的谅解, 哪怕就那么一点点...希望你不要不理我, 哪怕只是向我点一点头, 微微笑...希望一切能重新来过, 哪怕我再也不会认识现在我所认识的人...

我只是希望, 你不要再惦念着那些过去, 只要你尝试, 哪怕就忘记那么一丁点

让我们重新出发吧

i have something to say =)

2010-10-24T08:44:00.003+08:00

yayyy...done one of the craziest week...but more are coming soon...anyway i wont care for it for now XD

hmm....finger cut is healing...hope it will be fine real soon...injection effects finally gone !! i can bath and do things like normal d...only the finger wound matters now...

went for volunteering for fall campus day...chemical engineering volunteers...answer alot of ques from parents and high school students....great experience though...haha

i am being really honest when they ask me abt my life as a chem eng student XD

tomorrow badminton...sometimes i really wonder, should i go for badminton? or church? i am not a christian, but going to that church, and listen to the messages conveyed by the priest really make me realize something in my life...

but i like badminton...it's like the only sport that can make me play for hours...hahaa

yesterday, Toronto-ians celebrated my birthday...it's kind of surprising though coz i duno they will book a dinner in Matahari..i kinda tot it was a normal outing ...coz we always party on fri nite

so we went to eat there, i ordered char keoy teow, others order mee goreng, hokkien mee, nasi lemak, rendang etc...the food are not bad, but insane expensive XD one plate of char keoy teow costs me abt 18 dollars after tax =S

anyway, once in a while, i dun mind...i had a birthday cake there...and kind of paiseh too, coz it's like in a restaurant, with other outsiders around, when they sang the bday song, i feel abit paiseh la..haha

had a nice birthday celebration with them...it really feels nice coz u are alone in oversea without ur family around, and u hav a bunch of close frens who celebrate ur bday with u...i feel really warm...we are friends, but we are also a big family, a family of Malaysian JPA students in Toronto...^^

Thank you so much my family in Toronto...it's really nice to have you guys here =)

reminded of that again

2010-10-17T10:28:00.003+08:00

cut my finger...ouuchhhh...it was sooo painful...cried when i washed my wound

went to see doctor, skipped 2 classes for that...she said i almost sliced my finger tip off...cried again when she washed my wound...painnnnn

given a Tetanus shot, to prevent infection...a deep cut

typing with 9 fingers now...

i cried...and again, i was reminded of that PAIN again...a deep deep cut in my heart

don't leave me just like that...please...almost 8 years, but i still feel the deep pain in my heart

or should i just leave with you =(

sportsss

2010-10-11T03:41:00.002+08:00

played some sports in Toronto...like frisbee, basketball..and recently tried swimming and badminton =)

nice sports...though tired, but it was really a good exercise..will continue learning swimming =)

realized who are the ones really good to me =)

thanks my friends

2010-10-04T08:20:00.002+08:00

风筝断了线, 往事般落在我面前, 是谁忘了将风筝握紧一点, 牵起了那年的秋天

往事如过眼烟云, 过了就真的是过了, 莫要流连忘返...

再舍不得也得放下

偶然的心丝拨动, 也要忍耐, 让它消逝

我了解, 离开树的叶, 属于地上的世界, 凋谢

云, 就算不想离开天堂, 还是要化成雨滴, 落下来

叶, 不再是叶

云, 不再是云

景, 已然不在

我, 也已不是我

missing residence's life...

2010-09-27T02:55:00.002+08:00

stay off campus now...need to do everything on my own...no more chestnut =(

if chestnut is not that expensive, i will consider staying there again this year =.= but it is just too expensive, so i decided to move out...

so have to do everything myself lo...like clean the house, cook, walk out to do laundry =(

sure miss chestnut life la ... so syok, cleaner will clean ur room every week, vacuum the carpet (gt carpet sumore, so that the floor will be warm)...and clean ur toilet (it's ensuite bathroom leh , tissue rolls provided sumore >.< ) everyday dont need to worry for meals, there are varieties of food + drinks, dont need to cook, dont need to wash, dont need to think what to cook today, what to eat today...

so contrast to now...lol

but now is alot more cheaper than chestnut la...can't deny that...

missing residence's life = missing pig's life...XD

who doesn't like pig life wor? XD

but move out has its advantages too...if not what on earth will make me cook ? haha

so...just leave my residence's life as a sweet memory !

cheers !! back to work !!

Gave up for the crap

2010-09-19T12:32:00.004+08:00

it just doesn't work right now for me...i mean...i just don't feel right...

i really hope time can heal everything...but it's now like more than half a year...why is it still like that?

it's not my fault...but...i am not doing the right thing as well...who can teach me what or how should i do?

i have tried my best...but sometimes i just feel so tired...so tired...too tired to be like this...but what i did doesn't receive any results...at least it seems like that to me...

so sometimes really want to give up...don't want to care anymore...

feel so so so sad actually...why did this crap happen to me?

fine...i surrender! i give up! i totally give up!

Cool house warming party !!!

2010-09-13T03:26:00.002+08:00

our house had organized an open house party for all our friends here...we started to prepare for it at around 2 pm...cut onions and garlics...wash vege...buy stuffs...it was my first time shedding tears when cutting onions, too much ady i guess...lol...i helped wen hui cooked fried rice, and it tastes so nice !! thumb up to wen hui...then nian yi cooked shrimp omelet and i also cooked that, but mine was almost failed =S ...after all i am a newbie in cooking =p great applause to nian yi too ...then we also cooked cabbage...alfie cooked his cheese omelet...good job for him =)

so everyone reached around 6pm...and we start eating...i was actually quite hungry so i ate quite alot =p with ta pao tauhu & siu yok & fried chicken...all home cooked !!! after eating, we played bluff for so many rounds =.= don't really know how to cheat anyway hahaa...=p we drank beers and vodka...err actually i just drank a little bit of beer, and abit bit vodka mixed with orange juice =.= can't feel anyting hahaa....others drunk leh...red faces red eyes...feel like terbang sumore =p hahaa ...i guess they had gone crazy coz they disco at nian yi's room =.= switched off the light with torch light shinning around =.=

anyway..i guess everyone has fun and enjoy it to the maximum !!! it's a nice party right? ^^ hope we will have it again in the near future XD

WWE Raw !!!

2010-09-12T01:30:00.002+08:00

Omg...i can't believe i am going this !!!

watched it on TV since form 4...when sit in front of tv that time, never imagine or thought that i will one day go to watch LIVE in Toronto...

this is a WWE world tour in Toronto Air Canada Centre...from 7.30pm to 10 pm...

saw Edge, Chris Jericho, Randy Orton...!!! hahaa can't believe i saw them ...not on tv...is in the ring !!!

Cool night !!!

Photos will be uploaded soon in fb =)

finally reached Toronto safely ...

2010-08-27T14:46:00.002+08:00

after a long long flight...with so many running and rushing ... it's totally like Amazing Race...=.=

so tired after all these...

some of us almost can't fly...coz of that stupid travel cuts =.= but don't think about it anymore...coz i am finally here ...huuuuu...with all my luggages with me...

anyways, i have reached here safely ... thank god i am here now...so no worries d people :)))

in Hong Kong now

2010-08-26T15:28:00.002+08:00

lalalala....finally my enjoyment comes to an end....

i will be back to Toronto...

now transiting in HK airport...

later transit in vancouver airport...

then will reach toronto...

tired !!!

bye bye Malaysia and my beloved family =(

2010-08-24T22:37:00.002+08:00

can't believe he is such person...kiam pa ! hidung tinggi ! selfish ! thin-faced ! sia sui !

ok that's none of my business anymore...regretted that i know him !

first time so fed up & disappointed with a friend !

yes i do care about this friend last time. i hope i can repair and fix everything with him !

but now i am not !

no regrets !

no more friend !

NO MORE FRIEND !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Leaving

2010-08-22T23:54:00.002+08:00

so fast it's aug 22nd now...

recently had a lot of gatherings with different gangs of friends...

with primary school best friends, tortoise family, S1 & S2 best friends...

had a lot of fun gather and chatting with them :)))

leaving home soon...

no more relax, no more fun, no more piggy life...

back to study...back to hell...

back to Toronto...

if nothing stops me, I won't be back for 3 years ...

牛郎织女的七夕 !!!

2010-08-17T16:41:00.002+08:00

好吧好吧...就让我来blog一下牛郎织女的传说吧...

对我来说, 这是一个凄美,感人,浪漫的中国民间传说...它象征的不仅仅是中国千百年来所流传下来的文化, 更是代表了中国古代女性对幸福浪漫婚姻的向往...

农历七月初七, 七夕, 就是一年里, 牛郎织女唯一能相见的日子, 也就是中国情人节了...

相传天上有个织女星，还有一个牵牛星。织女和牵牛情投意合，心心相印。可是，天条律令是不允许男欢女爱、私自相恋的。织女是王母的孙女，王母便将牵牛贬下凡尘了，令织女不停地织云锦以作惩罚。

　　织女的工作，便是用了一种神奇的丝在织布机上织出层层叠叠的美丽的云彩，随着时间和季节的不同而变幻它们的颜色，这是“天衣”。自从牵牛被贬之后，织女常常以泪洗面，愁眉不展地思念牵牛。她坐在织机旁不停地织着美丽的云锦以期博得王母大发慈心，让牵牛早日返回天界。

　　一天，几个仙女向王母恳求想去人间碧莲池一游，王母今日心情正好，便答应了她们。她们见织女终日苦闷，便一起向王母求情让织女共同前往，王母也心疼受惩后的孙女，便令她们速去速归。

　　话说牵牛被贬之后，落生在一个农民家中，取名叫牛郎。后来父母去世，他便跟着哥嫂度日。哥嫂待牛郎非常刻薄，要与他分家，只给了他一头老牛和一辆破车，其他的都被哥哥嫂嫂独占了，然后，便和牛郎分家了。

　　从此，牛郎和老牛相依为命，他们在荒地上披荆斩棘，耕田种地，盖造房屋。一两年后，他们营造成一个小小的家，勉强可以糊口度日。可是，除了那条不会说话的老牛而外，冷清清的家只有牛郎一个人，日子过得相当寂寞。牛郎并不知道，那条老牛原是天上的金牛星。

　　这一天，老牛突然开口说话了，它对牛郎说：“牛郎，今天你去碧莲池一趟，那儿有些仙女在洗澡，你把那件红色的仙衣藏起来，穿红仙衣的仙女就会成为你的妻子。”牛郎见老牛口吐人言，又奇怪又高兴，便问道：“牛大哥，你真会说话吗？你说的是真的吗？”老牛点了点头，牛郎便悄悄躲在碧莲池旁的芦苇里，等候仙女们的来临。

　　不一会儿，仙女们果然翩翩飘至，脱下轻罗衣裳，纵身跃入清流。牛郎便从芦苇里跑出来，拿走了红色的仙衣。仙女们见有人来了，忙乱纷纷地穿上自己的衣裳，像飞鸟般地飞走了，只剩下没有衣服无法逃走的仙女，她正是织女。织女见自己的仙衣被一个小伙子抢走，又羞又急，却又无可奈何。这时，牛郎走上前来，对她说，要她答应做他妻子，他才能还给她的衣裳。织女定睛一看，才知道牛郎便是自己日思夜想的牵牛，便含羞答应了他。这样，织女便做了牛郎的妻子。

　　他们结婚以后，男耕女织，相亲相爱，日子过得非常美满幸福。不久，他们生下了一儿一女，十分可爱。牛郎织女满以为能够终身相守，白头到老。

　　可是，王母知道这件事后，勃然大怒，马上派遣天神仙女捉织女回天庭问罪。

　　这一天，织女正在做饭，下地去的牛郎匆匆赶回，眼睛红肿着告诉织女：“牛大哥死了，他临死前说，要我在他死后，将他的牛皮剥下放好，有朝一日，披上它，就可飞上天去。”织女一听，心中纳闷，她明白，老牛就是天上的金牛星，只因替被贬下凡的牵牛说了几句公道话，也贬下天庭。它怎么会突然死去呢？织女便让牛郎剥下牛皮，好好埋葬了老牛。

　　正在这时，天空狂风大作，天兵天将从天而降，不容分说，押解着织女便飞上了天空。

　　正飞着、飞着，织女听到了牛郎的声音：“织女，等等我！”织女回头一看，只见牛郎用一对箩筐，挑着两个儿女，披着牛皮赶来了。慢慢地，他们之间的距离越来越近了，织女可以看清儿女们可爱的模样子，孩子们了都张开双臂，大声呼叫着“妈妈”，眼看，牛郎和织女就要相逢了。可就在这时，王母驾着祥云赶来了，她拔下她头上的金簪，往他们中间一划，霎时间，一条天河波涛滚滚地横在了织女和牛郎之间，无法横越了。

　　织女望着天河对岸的牛郎和儿女们，直哭得声嘶力竭，牛郎和孩子也哭得死去活来。他们的哭声，孩子们一声声“妈妈”的喊声，是那样揪心裂胆，催人泪下，连在旁观望的仙女、天神们都觉得心酸难过，于心不忍。王母见此情此景，也稍稍为牛郎织女的坚贞爱情所感动，便同意让牛郎和孩子们留在天上，每年七月七日，让他们相会一次。

　　从此，牛郎和他的儿女就住在了天上，隔着一条天河，和织女遥遥相望。在秋夜天空的繁星当中，我们至今还可以看见银河两边有两颗较大的星星，晶莹地闪烁着，那便是织女星和牵牛星。和牵牛星在一起的还有两颗小星星，那便是牛郎织女的一儿一女。

　　牛郎织女相会的七月七日，无数成群的喜鹊飞来为他们搭桥。鹊桥之上，牛郎织女团聚了！织女和牛郎深情相对，搂抱着他们的儿女，有无数的话儿要说，有无尽的情意要倾诉啊！

　　传说，每年的七月七日，若是人们在葡萄架下葡萄藤中静静地听，可以隐隐听到仙乐奏鸣，织女和牛郎在深情地交谈。直是：相见时难别亦难，他们日日在盼望着第二年七月七日的重逢。

　　后来，每到农历七月初七，相传牛郎织女鹊桥相会的日子，姑娘们就会来到花前月下，抬头仰望星空，寻找银河两边的牛郎星和织女星，希望能看到他们一年一度的相会，乞求上天能让自己能象织女那样心灵手巧，祈祷自己能有如意称心的美满婚姻和美丽的爱情，由此形成了七夕节。

2010-08-14T23:11:00.002+08:00

知道吗? 离开那天不准哭哦...至少等上了飞机独自一人的时候再哭吧...不想别人, 尤其是父母看到我哭, 只会让他们更担心...已经决定了, 不回了, 直到毕业...

不说了, 我真怕会忍不住...

对不起, 谢谢您...

加油, 凯涵.

Inception shall be the new teaching material of Eng 4U...hehe

2010-08-04T22:46:00.003+08:00

Watched a movie today, Inception, alone...left me think deep after the movie, dream within a dream?

did i experience similar dream before? i think i did know i was dreaming when i was in some of my dreams...

but well, i don't think i have experienced a dream within a dream...

Christopher Nolan has ended the movie in a brilliant way...the last shot of the scene, where the top keep spinning, then the screen went black off...

the audience will never know if the top stop spinning, although it seems to be wobble anyway...

but Cobb did reunion with his children, will he care if he is in a dream, or reality?

there is a great debate, whether Cobb is still in the dream at last, or he is in the reality? (should have discussed about this movie in ENG 4U!!!)

or is the whole movie just a dream? how do u know for sure it's reality?

what's reality?

now? with u reading a blog?

how do you know u are not in someone's dream? or your own dream?

or is your life just a dream? someone else's dream?

there's a saying in Chinese which goes~

是我梦见了蝴蝶, 还是蝴蝶梦见了我?

quite fits the movie right?

anyway the perception of reality, is worth a discussion among us =)

well, it has the most perfect and indescribable ending which I have ever seen =)

2010-07-28T16:49:00.002+08:00

one more month and i will be back to Toronto...it's kinda sad =( everything starts all over again, this is not a good feeling...one year back from now, i still remember i felt so excited to go to oversea...study at oversea, something that i have wished for since long time ago =) i know i am so lucky to have this chance...last year didn't cry at all...though i feel sad to leave my beloved home...

now one year has passed...so fast...now it's July again..compared with my mood and feeling last year, this time it is filled more with sadness than happiness... i wonder..maybe i have gone through a year of harshness there, so now i understand everything is going to be so hard...and don't know when will i back to my home next time, will i stay back for summer ? one year? two years? it's hard to say now...

one year has passed, everything changes, and change everything...

Future can be predicted?

2010-07-12T17:23:00.003+08:00

nowadays, Paul the octopus is really famous...famous for its prediction...and yesterday, it just accurately predicted the final match between Spain and Netherland...not a Germany's match..means it can actually predict any match? maybe the scientists should conduct an experiment on the octopus, to test whether or not it can predict on other stuffs...

come to think of it...how can an octopus predict the future? what makes it has the ability? i don't know about octopus (well i am not a biology student anyway) but i think octopus should be an intelligent creature on earth...i don't know about its IQ or other abilities, but i guess its IQ is comparable with humans'...at least it is not like other common creatures on earth...

two possibilities...either every octopus has this ability, or Paul is the special one (it is given the ability to predict the future...under an circumstance which we won't understand by now) the problem is here...where is the logic? how to predict future? future is something so abstract, u can't even see, think or feel...well maybe u can imagine...but u won't know for sure what will happen at the next moment...

so what is it mean actually? is it something there for u to 'feel' the future? first we have to know that future is something beyond of time...can we travel ahead of time? haha of course not...if i would have to know what will happen in the next second, i must 'go forward' two seconds in order for me to 'feel' what will happen in the next second...make sense huh? i don't know...my vocab is too poor so i keep on using '...' haha...but like what i said it's impossible for us to travel faster than time...but well, the truth is in front of our eyes...future is predicted! something is there for sure which is faster than time? what is it?

something interesting to be investigated =D

2010-07-06T13:46:00.002+08:00

有人说, 每个人身边, 都有个看不见的守护天使. 他会默默地守护着你, 让你在黑暗中看见光, 挫折中看见希望.

有人说, 当陨星坠落时, 就是又有个人死掉了. 但也有人说, 一次的陨星坠落, 等于一次的许愿.

那么愿望的实现是不是等于换了另一个人的牺牲?

那样的矛盾是不是一直都存在着?

守护天使到底在不在?

我看不见他, 但他看得见我吗? 他能感受得到我的心情吗? 大家都说他确确实实存在着, 我也相信啊, 只是我看不见而已.

看得见也未必是真的啊...呵呵

继续折着星星, 九十九粒, 一百粒...也忘了是谁说的, 这样就能祈福...

是吗? 也有人说是无聊...

就是这么矛盾...

希望可以忘记, 却又期待...

就是这么矛盾...

Calligraphy Exhibition

2010-06-20T22:27:00.004+08:00

went to my sis's personal calligraphy exhibition on last friday...it was a great exhibition...she learned calligraphy for 7 years...using her left hand..and finally have a personal calligraphy exhibition...really proud of her haha...there are so many different types of calligraphy...not only the 楷书 which is commonly known by us..but also some special types...like 行书, 隶书, 草书, 篆书 and so on...i like 隶书 so much...^^

篆书~~~

隶书~~~

2010-06-15T21:10:00.002+08:00

从来没有人对我那么好，所以我感动

那么深的感动，自然让我特别在意

感动着，同时也忍着痛

隐藏感动，仰或释放？

一切似乎冥瞑之中，自有安排

Around Johor

2010-05-28T14:48:00.003+08:00

oh it was really a surprise trip! one hour before that, i still don't know i am going to bp...after one hour, i am on the bus to bp with CT and derek...lol...i thought i am just going to bring them eat bah kut teh, then fetch them to the bus station, that's all..who knows they will ask me to go to bp with them as well? hahaa...unexpectedly, i go with them, after i simply packed some stuffs...

so we reached batu pahat by bus...Tee came and fetched us back to his house. first we find malcolm, then we went to eat and meet with shu woon also...walk around in batu pahat, they showed us the symbol of bp, it is a statue of two hands, holding a pahat and a batu...hahaa...then malcolm told us alot of his high school ghost story...well, there is a shopping mall called 'square one' as well, like the one in mississauga..LOL...we went back home at around 12am, so that night we stayed at tee's house...

the next morning we departed to Pontian, tee drives us there...really really salute their driving skills...haiz...so we reached Liang's house...he brings us to Tanjung Piai, the most southern part of south east asia...the sea breeze there is strong , well, it is really comfortable there..a nice walk in Tanjung Piai =) after that we went to see fishes by ferry, saw the area to rare fishes at the middle of the sea...and also went for a walk around the village there, those houses are built on the sea...we had seafood as our dinner...=) that night we stayed in a hotel, Liang's mother's friend's hotel..haha..surprisingly also, i learned to play mahjong there, those guys taught me...and now i know how to play ady...hehe

well, those guys are really babi...CT and me woke up so early, waited for them for hours to wake up...lol...so we left Pontian for Johor Bahru...hahaa i never thought i will have the chance to go JB...this time Liang is our driver...first we met up with xiang rong and hope he can become our GPS, who knows his direction sense sucks...lol...maybe he didn't drive so he doesn't really know the direction...hahaa...after that we met with xin ying and terrence..went for sightseeing around JB town and the culture street...and Danga Bay also...feels abit like Harbour Front in Toronto..but of course, Harbour Front is nicer...haha...we ate Laksa as our lunch, and also ice kacang and rojak...super nice! for dinner, we ate the paper wrapped chicken, according to xr, it is really famous as alot of TV programmes recommend it...we saw a singapore actor eating there with family also...well, only me, xy and xr know who is that...others didn't watch sg dramas..

so it was the last day in Johor, CT and derek went back to Ipoh by night bus, i stay overnight in JB at xin ying's house...that night i talked alot with xin ying, i basically told her everything of what happened to me in Toronto in past few months...a nice pillow talk with her =) so the next morning, after having my breakfast with xy and her mum, they fetched me to Larkin bus station, and i went back to Klang..=) it's been a long time ( 8 months or so), since I last seen UBC ppl, except CT...I am happy to see Tee, Liang, Shu Woon, Xin Ying and Xiang Rong...hope to see them again...a nice trip in Johor though, thumb up to them =)

well maybe it's a kind of fate...to meet with them again in Msia...coz it's a real sudden i went to Johor..haha...after this i am going to east malaysia, sarawak and sabah...anticipating ^^

2010-05-19T16:38:00.004+08:00

说了再见, 却发现再也见不到。。。源自方文山的词。。。

是那么简单却又意义深刻的一句话。。。

如果眼泪能够证明一切。。。证明那些都不只是梦。。。

那我还是会选择掉泪, 却不说再见了。。。

如果真有神明，能否给我指点一条明路？告诉我该怎么做。。。

要是真有真相，那么这次, 我选择知道。。。

long yet short

2010-05-04T07:20:00.002+08:00

8 months away from home, this can be counted as short, yet it can be long for me too...a lot of things happen in these 8 months, sometimes i think many things are already fated, a small decision, will change ur life forever...i think i change a lot in these 8 months...i even start to eat meat...being influenced i guess...the two sems just fly pass me, if i would like to use 'memorable' to describe my first sem, then i think i will use 'realization' to describe my 2nd sem...started to realize the truth, it is a kind of metamorphosis...i wonder...really wonder...what has happened to me? change in the way of thinking, maturity, and the way to handle problems...8 months, feels like 8 years, i wonder why will i have such feeling...too deep, the changes are too deep...the impacts are not that i can handle properly, it tests on my patience, determination, and belief...grow up in such a short time, may be it is unfair, but it is really the time to get up and think twice, am i such a coward? i am not sure, this is the end, or it is just a starting point? still like the phrase, let nature takes its own course...

by the way, wish we all a happy summer break =)

fate

2010-04-23T05:16:00.002+08:00

it's fated...everything is fated...although I am not the one who will easily give up to fate, but I can't deny...and I can't fight against it...so I will just follow what's fated, since it's prove that all are really fated...

Away~

2010-04-18T02:24:00.002+08:00

Love the 3D cartoon, UP so much...away in a house by few millions of balloons...you can say it is impossible or nonsense...but what I am looking for is not the scientific facts in the movie, is something in the movie that touched me..deep in my heart, how i wish i could fly away just like that, bye to everything in the reality, run away from the reality, to a world which has only love and peace...full with flowers and blue sky, river flows peacefully, sunshine poured onto the ground with green grasses...how I wish i could be in the world right now...=) To be honest, i am tired and bored with all the facts in the real world...sometimes i think we just don't need to be so serious, everything can have different points of view, and not everything is true under the so-called scientific facts...sometimes we just need to believe and allocate some imagination spaces for ourselves, to remember our childhood dreams...in the rush hour of time, just don't forget where is our starting point...=)

2010-04-14T05:48:00.002+08:00

what happen actually..lol..i am not that type who like to fight =.=
why? i am such a peaceful girl...

Exam mode started!

2010-04-10T07:06:00.003+08:00

Aza Aza Fighting!!!

21 days before nasi lemak currypuff and roti canai

21 days before dramas and movies

21 days of suffer = nearly 4 months of heaven!!!

final exam coming...4 subjects to go...just bear with it and I will be fine =)

go through it, don't give up...believe in myself that I can do it!!!

feeling happy happy and happy ^^

Btw, I love this photo...=)

happiness~~~

2010-04-03T11:59:00.002+08:00

i just realized that i am already in the 101st post...hahaa...

time flies....so fast...still remember how I got this blog...influenced by some friends...ahahaa...

blogging is fun though...especially when you are tired of study, blogging helps to relax...

really busy recently...tired~~~ But going back home soon...feel happy and energetic ^^

like the way I am feeling right now...I love it...^^

hope everything will be fine...just let me pass through all these and I will be fine =)

just go back to my starting point k? =DDD

2010-03-29T00:07:00.002+08:00

好痛...真的跌痛了...这就是我做人的原则...尽我最好的能力去帮助别人, 有时我宁愿自己伤心受气, 也不愿意别人失望...我一直都在忍气吞声, 从来都不想争吵, 我都会顺着别人的意思, 已求顾全大局...我太好心了,别人也许都不会做的事,我却一直在做...但没有人看得见...也许他们都认为这是必然的,是他们应得的...当我开始会为自己想时, 却招来了'自私' 的罪状...是的, 是我自私, 满意了吧? 然后去把我的'自私'告诉其他人...好的,我不辩,你满意了吧? 只有我一个人, 其他人都是一班兄弟, 当然这都得是我的错了...我好后悔, 为什么在最后一刻, 放弃我本该去的地方,而来到了这里? 要是和他们在一起,我也就不会像现在这样,我是有多伤心,多难过,多心碎,只有我自己晓得...

天黑了...

2010-03-23T08:20:00.000+08:00

该认命吗？

2010-03-19T11:44:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MUMMY!!!!!!!!!!! =DDD

BUSY

2010-03-18T11:27:00.002+08:00

haiz...the workload of chem eng in U of T is reallyyyyy....damn lotsss....><
especially this sem...the month of March...hell~~~

To be completed in 3 weeks time:
1. MSE Labs
2. Chem Project, presentation
3. Calculus Online assignment
4. Electric quiz
5. Computer project
6. FDS
7. Induvidual portfolio
8. APS quiz
9. Chem Lab

and last but not least...

10. SLEEP!!!

Wish me luck~~~

2010-03-07T12:33:00.001+08:00

已开始忘记当时的感觉...

重新开始也许会更好...

我好想, 回到原点.

2010-03-04T09:33:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY!!!

Reading week rocksss!!!

2010-02-25T12:15:00.003+08:00

Sat- Yorkdale, bought a red shirt and a jeans...CNY reunion dinner...play fireworks till 1 something, go back met CT in SK's room, chat and chat, watched a movie by Jacky Chan till 4 am...

Sun- First day of CNY...walked to St.Lawrence market and found out it is closed=.= Plan to go to Huberfront but found that it is way too far...anyway, a nice walk around old Toronto(I never know Toronto gt such place which looks like Montreal) Then dinner in Chestnut with whole bunch of friends...

Mon- Sing K in china town...first time in Canada...9pm to 3am, break my record...nice experience anyway...and my first time to hang out so late...

Tues- Watched Avatar Imax 3D with shang khoon and liong...the 3D was really nice...and the movie is nice and meaningful too...Steamboat as dinner at china town, celebrate soh's birthday...

Wed- Study during the day, enjoy during the night...went to derek's room to eat cny cookies...and play bluff...nice =)

Thurs, Fri, Sat and Sun- basically study >< to prepare for the rows of exams on tues after school reopen...(UBC ppl are still holidaying ><)

Play alot...so at last study really really fast to compensate it...><
Anyway i wont regret...first CNY in Canada...give me one more time i will still play like this!!! ^^

致阿嬷

2010-02-19T08:37:00.002+08:00

您还好吗？

七年了，时间过的真快。

只记得让您看了我穿中学校服，那是第一次，也是最后一次。。。

依稀记得我从摇篮跌了下来，您紧张地摸着我的头,怕我跌伤了。。。

也记得您给我讲的道理和故事。。。

也记得大人们是怎么对您的。。。

您说不知道我长大了是什么样子的。。。

我已长大了。。。已是大学生。。。您可看到我了吗？

我好想您。。。虽然已七年，但是每当想起您，我的心还是湫着,痛着。。。

无论别人如何忘记您，也请您放心，因为有我，您永远都在我心里。。。

我过得很好,您不用担心我。。。

我爱您，阿嬷 =)

放松~~~

2010-02-11T10:56:00.003+08:00

终于忙完年假之前的功课与考试...虽然我知道这不是年假, 而是reading week, 但我还是自然而然地把它当年假 =p
年假后还有好多考试和功课,但我不管啦,这次一定要玩个够!! 因为我知道年假后的日子会如地狱般,生不如死=.=
蛮期待这个拜六的团圆饭,以往都是与家人亲戚庆祝,这次是第一次与朋友们庆祝,应该会很值得怀念...
今年新年比较不爽...没有得做年饼,也没得吃,没得买新衣,没得去拜年,没得拿红包...=(
不过我还是很开心,今年的reading week 就那么巧落在华人农历新年, 所以才有‘年假’^^ 年初一又是情人节,真是喜上加喜啊,一定有很多人结婚=p
期待看到mississauga的朋友们,想念他们=)
期待从UBC来的‘贵宾’，竹婷^^ 也很想她=)

新年我来也!!!

memories...

2010-02-02T08:43:00.002+08:00

Suddenly my mind runs all the way back to 2008-07 to 2009-06...

ICPU...a significant turning point in my life...

9 pm gang...how are u? =)

my housemates...how are u all doing?

i hope everyone in these photos are fine...and i miss it always =)

lots and lots of love and support from me =)

新年万岁!!! ^^

2010-01-28T07:37:00.005+08:00

庚寅年就要到啦!

新年新年, 新年快乐!!!

一个礼拜的假期...足以回忆过去的新年...

通常这个时候,我的衣橱已经挂满了新衣裳^^

我还在做着年饼呢^^

最喜欢就是炒花生,煮黄梨馅,搓面粉团^^

再来就是吃团圆饭, 守岁, 观赏没完没了的贺岁节目, 看着烟花满天飞, 炮竹声到处都是...

气氛都很浓厚^^

新年歌, 少不了!!!

yay!!! 新年万岁万岁万万岁!!!

不解

2010-01-20T11:08:00.002+08:00

目前的状况有点奇怪，连我自己也搞不清楚。到底现在是怎么一回事啊？真的不明白...

Clear...

2010-01-17T03:31:00.001+08:00

yeaa it's all clear now...=)

I love the feeling...being clarified and no confusion...

I suppose...

I will go ahead with my life with a big smile =D

2010-01-12T08:50:00.002+08:00

I do not have a good mood this few days...i even feel sad...

it will be mid of january soon...

can I be happy again?

I don't want to feel the way that I do...at least for now...

I want to go back home...

I am not sure how long more can I stand all these...

What I can do now is just to be tough...as tough as I can...tougher than what I can imagine...

It will be a long way to go...yet it is short too...let it pass by heart...

I will try to feel it...

I will not give up no matter what...

I really miss home...

有时候...

2010-01-06T07:34:00.002+08:00

有时候, 一切都只是错觉...
有时候, 一切都会过去, 只要我不再去想...
有时候, 可以忘得干脆...
有时候,时间可以证明一切, 也可以洗去一切记忆...
但, 这次呢?

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

2010-01-01T13:47:00.002+08:00

so fast one year has passed...still rmb i wrote a post on the first day of 2009...

yessss.....5 months more...i will go back home ^^

2009-12-27T11:13:00.002+08:00

心痛? 不可能

在意? 不可能

一切都无法解释

情感是那么的奥妙, 我无法渗透

到底为了什么而辩?

好模糊, 好迷蒙

就像迷路

我...真的走不出去了

2009-12-21T13:26:00.002+08:00

怎么办? 真的是这样吗? 怎么办？
我真的害怕了，不要了可以吗？
可以逃避吗？
我可以逃走吗？

2009-12-05T05:01:00.003+08:00

这几天都觉得很累。想好好读书，却一直想睡。。可是我每天都有睡至少6个小时，怎么会累呢？感觉自己好‘猪' 啊~~~

我想，那是种抽象的累吧。。

怎么那么快就对一切都厌倦？我只知道我好想家。。

何时才能回去呢？

最近，发现我突然有种感觉，以前从来都没有的感觉。。很玄，无法解释

就像我无法想象北极熊怎么和金鱼相遇，飞鸟如何想游, 鱼如何想飞。。

无从摸索，无从说起

就让一切随着时光的瑚柏，自然而然地，封闭在未知数里。。

就让我耐心地等。。

2009-11-23T08:38:00.000+08:00

I love you =)

出走

2009-11-19T09:15:00.002+08:00

今晚, 一个人出走.

不走走看看, 永远不会知道沿途风景.

原来这就是我梦中的不夜城. 圣诞快到了...路边街灯都开始装饰,就连灯光都变得有点梦幻...

走在那陌生的街上, 看到一个老外在弹奏小提琴, 怎么我听起来就像是中国古典乐曲? 哈哈

也看到了那个大广场...有棵好大的白色圣诞树...也有几只可爱的白色小熊...白色灯光亮着, 让我好期待那梦中的白色圣诞...

逛着超市, 商店都开始售卖圣诞装饰品. 看到一些可爱的小礼物, 不会贵, 可以买. =)

感受到晚风的刺骨, 但心好温暖, 真的感受到那小小的幸福^^

一个人出走,真的不一样...晚上的所见,也全然不同...

我要...出走.

Help...T_T

2009-11-11T08:17:00.002+08:00

I don't want to fail in direction!!!!!!!!! >_<

I can't even recognize the buildings around my residence after two months staying here ....T_T

If I am alone, I will still get lost from class to class, buliding to building...

I still cannot walk alone to the nearest shopping mall...no...I should say...after I get in to the shopping mall through the entrance which I am familiar with, I don't know whether I still can get back to the same entrance or not...

I go to the wrong entrance = LOST

I don't want I don't want >_<

I want to recognize every roads and bulidings here!!!

2009-11-09T00:59:00.002+08:00

突然想写些什么...

写了些字,却又把它擦掉

无话可说...

人越大, 越觉得空虚...

领悟的事越多, 也渐渐对一切没有了感觉...

我不想这样...

但无能为力...

人都不能抗拒长大

期待真正豁然开朗的一天...

我知道我已经伸手可及...

就等着别人的醒悟

It's My Day ^^

2009-10-26T02:41:00.004+08:00

Hahaha..i have more than 24 hours to celebrate my birthday..because of the time difference...yesterday was my birthday in Malaysia...then today is my birthday in Canada...hahaha...so fast one year had passed..and I rmb last year i celebrated my birthday with my housesmates...miss them lo~~~ yesterday we all went out to eat and it was my first time to eat steamboat here...of course malaysia's steamboat better lo hahaha...but actually it doesn't matter...so touched they all are willing to celebrate my birthday with me...coz i noe everyone is busy with study, next week got midterm >< i duwan to waste ppl's time...this was the first thing which makes me feel like crying...i am easily touched but it is not easy for me to shed tears...

Then yesterday night, at 12.30am, bainin skype with me....that time denise was in bainin's room too, we all chat for a while then kelly came in, followed by xinying...bainin's webcam not bad o...i can see all of them clearly...then they sang birthday song for me...I am so touched and suddenly miss those time we spent together in A-06-11...hahha..it was a really valuable experience which is only owned by us, the member of A0611 ^^ we chat for an hour, then I called wahida to come and 6 of us chat for one more hour...hahaa..it was like 2am already...i sacrificed my sleep, but I was really happy and touched ^^ This was the second thing which makes me feel like crying again T_T

today morning i checked my email...found out so many wishes from facebook, or e-cards....all from my primary, secondary or taylor's frens...hahaa...feel so happy o...my birthday is remembered..now i only noe how many frens I have..hahaha..anyway I am really touched...this feeling is even stronger when I am in a place, so far away from my home...

and thanks to the gift again...the nivea hand lotion is really good...guess my hand wont be so dry anymore XD and the lipstick, it's nice on my lips..haha..XD

妈妈告诉我,今年的阳历十月二十五日就是农历九月初八,刚好我出生那年,也是同样的日期,十九年来,阳历和农历碰头, 这是头一遭...好巧哦..哈哈=)

祝我生日快乐 =)

I like it...

2009-10-18T22:26:00.002+08:00

Slowly...I have found my real interest...I will develop my interests in the field and I will not waste my talent and passion in that field~~ Thanks for the long talk yesterday night, I really learned a lot..

Finally, the book has published..and as expected, it is the nicest among all the series, because of its harmony colours...and the most important is, the quality of the essays...I thought it will be expensive, coz of the size, thickness and colour pages..but it is cheap!!! it's only costs RM 13!!! must buy...worth buying...please support =)

Nowadays, it's becoming colder and I got injured on my hands...cold burn >< the temp ady dropped to -ve...but it didn't snow yet...heard that this autumn is colder than last year's, so either the winter will come earlier, or the winter will be terrible...

miss the hotnesss in Malaysia eh~~~

And happy birthday to my brother!!! can't celebrate with u all this year...(actually for the next four years) I miss you all~~~

I miss home TT ~~~

Exams

2009-10-09T10:33:00.002+08:00

This week is quite full with exams...Calculus test which worth 20%, chemistry midterm which is also worth 20%, and next week has linear algebra mid term...Those tests quite tough leh...especially the chemistry...the hardest chem paper i have ever had..=.= But I know all these are parts of Uni...this is just the beginning...luckily I am quite optimistic with those marks...really nid to learn how to be more optimistic...since form 4 or form 5 I have started to feel nothing for my marks..coz I know all these will matter nothing at the end of the journey...so i never really stressed on my marks..haha...although now I am in Uni, I am still the same...trying to become a robot le...haha...I know, everything will be fine at the end...don't worry and be happy...
And proud to say...U of T ranking this year is 29th...very top eh...I study here but i duno why it will rank so top..=.= haha...
and this Saturday, I am going to Mississauga again...haha..i quite miss the biotech gang there..=) now is autumn, it is beautiful over there...next monday is the only holiday before the winter break...the ThanksGiving day...
Till here...cheers!!!
Study hard, and play hard too!!!

One month

2009-10-02T09:56:00.003+08:00

Here I am.

Nothing much...new life new experiences...

Mid-term is around the corner...

Study hard and play hard too...

Weekdays study, weekend relax...

Listen to songs...

Sports...

Shopping...

Exploring...

Miss home too...it's so far away...

Lastly...Happy Mooncake Festival!!! 中秋节快乐!!!

悟

2009-09-18T11:24:00.002+08:00

也就过了两个星期．没什么，就只是过回忙碌的日子．只是一切都要自己去打理了．孤身一人，来到这陌生又遥远的大城市，能靠的只有自己．而我，从出发那天到现在，眼泪都没掉过，还以为自己会哭呢...也许真的麻木了...
听着天黑黑，突然想起很多以前的事，想哭，但还是忍住了．
一夕之间，领悟了许多．
给我勇气，让我坚强一些．我知道这一切都不容易．
一句普通不过的话，就能给自己带来安慰．
加油．

Classes will start tomorrow

2009-09-10T08:02:00.002+08:00

First class after a long long rest...

3 months of pig life...

Anticipating, worrying and exciting...

Hope everything will be fine...

Hope I can get used to those buildings and roads as fast as possible...

Good luck.

2009-09-06T11:04:00.002+08:00

went to the JPA meeting just now...met with alot of frens fr missisauga...mathew, philipeee all tat...haha...really happy to see them..^.^
video call with UBC ppl...my housemates....CT....TXR...feel that they are really far fr us...

trying to make myself comfortable...

2009-09-05T09:59:00.002+08:00

this few days, walked alot around the downtown of Toronto...to buy stuffs, like extension, comforter, laundry basket, detergent,......
settled down in Chestnut, already packed all my stuffs..my roomate is a korean, she is nice=) speaks fluent english, japanese and korean...so we communicate in english..haha...already used with Denise(english speaking roomate), so it will be fine...^^
went to explore my campus too, St.George...it is really easy to get lost there...so many roads and buildings...I am really sucks in direction, really need some time to get used to it...
legs get injured too, as a result of walking too much...=(
anyway, everything here is fine...and Toronto is really nice... I like the weather so much...=)
tmr will be the engineering flrosh...hope I wont get too tired..and hope my legs will not be too painful...
will be the best I can be...=]

Finally reach Toronto

2009-09-02T12:15:00.002+08:00

After a long journey of 30 hours flight, I finally arrived safely in Toronto...
Now settle down in a hotel...after two nights will move into my residence...
Here is very nice...I can see CN Tower from my window...=)
Tomorrow gonna to be a busy day...

In Dubai

2009-09-01T08:29:00.002+08:00

I really cant believe I am in Dubai now...later going to London, then Toronto.

Excited, not sleepy at all...

Now everyone of us is sitting down and online...

The Dubai International Airport give me a 'desert' feel...hahaha...

hmm...will be going off again at Malaysia time 10am...

Still abit confuse on the time difference...

There will be no time at all in London...all rushing...

I will update post again when I am in Toronto...

Last post before I leave for Canada

2009-08-30T22:23:00.002+08:00

I will leave tmr....wil reach KLIA at 5 pm...
KLIA-->Dubai-->London-->Toronto
will reach Toronto at Malaysia time, 6.30am, September 2nd.
hmmm.....stil feel nothing now, just feel abit excited and unbelievable..hahaha..
i will update post in Dubai!!!
Canada here I come~~~

~ My Spaceship ~

My Valentine

长大

几米说得很有道理

new year new resolution

中秋节

piano...

being a noob

3 days Road Trip

Go-Kart !!

failed noodles

the other great and long weekend ^.^

good weekend !

summer ~~~

basketball !!

IMBA Lion King

MASAT Secretary

Can't wait for summer

Happy Birthday Mummy...miss you :))

Finally, I got it =)

Happy Birthday Papa...miss you :))

在时计里 看破一生 渺渺

辛卯年快乐 :)))

New blog design ^^

幸福不是必然的

is 2012 going to be the end of the world ??

2010 winter break ~ !!!

almost there...

awww I love my voice

i have something to say =)

reminded of that again

sportsss

missing residence's life...

Gave up for the crap

Cool house warming party !!!

WWE Raw !!!

finally reached Toronto safely ...

in Hong Kong now

Leaving

牛郎织女的七夕 !!!

Inception shall be the new teaching material of Eng 4U...hehe

Future can be predicted?

Calligraphy Exhibition

Around Johor

long yet short

fate

Away~

Exam mode started!

happiness~~~

BUSY

Reading week rocksss!!!

致阿嬷

放松~~~

memories...

新年万岁!!! ^^

不解

Clear...

有时候...

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

出走

Help...T_T

It's My Day ^^

I like it...

Exams

One month

悟

Classes will start tomorrow

trying to make myself comfortable...

Finally reach Toronto

In Dubai

Last post before I leave for Canada

在时计里看破一生渺渺